I always wanted to be a Psychic-medium Channeler, but I didn’t have the gift. I watched mediums on television, read their books and believed in the worlds they described and their words. I was jealous. These people were special, and had the best gift of all: knowledge- spiritual knowledge. Knowing the truth, knowing the future, being able to tap into the beyond.
Their books and this knowing of something greater, gave me hope, and made me less afraid of dying. It made way more sense than what I taught in the Roman Catholic Church.
Years later, in my early twenties, I was informed: “everyone can do it, you just have to learn how to tap into it and listen.”
WHHHAAATT??? I was skeptical, because I thought those gifts came naturally, like singing… either you can sing or you can’t.
But enough people were telling me these things that I was like “well alright then, let me try”.
And so I did. Over the past 10 years I have been in intuition courses, psychic courses, read channeling books.. you name it.
A couple years ago, after attending channeling courses, we could then practice in front of the class after approval from the teacher. The lights would be turned off, with only 1 hot light on the ground casting a ghostly shadow on whoever’s face was in the “hotseat”. I did feel an experience sitting in that chair. I would start to feel lighter, a feeling of going into an almost psychedelic state. My body tingled, my arm hairs rose, my eyelids fluttered (as they usually do when I feel I am going into a deeply meditative state), my ears grew hot. But I never felt like a new spirit has entered my body, or took it over, as others had described. I never really got any “words” or a message out. Once again I knew I was a failure. This thing that everyone else could do (in my world), I could not.
But maybe everyone isn’t like me. I mentioned in another post, that I don’t want to give spiritual information if I am not sure its true. And even if I heard a voice in my head, I couldn’t determine that it wasn’t my own thoughts. So I am not going to pretend I am channeling- just in case it was my own inner dialogue.
Almost every spiritual teacher has told me “it’s going to seem like your own thoughts, its going to feel like your imagination… but it isn’t”. I guess that’s not good enough for me. I personally need something more clear. I need to know that I am getting messages from beyond and its not just my subconscious. And, unlike myself, everyone else seems perfectly okay with sharing information that “sounds like their own inner voice”.
Every time I walk out thinking, I just don’t have this gift apparently. I am doing something wrong, or the angels and guides just want me to figure shit out on my own in the earth plane.
After those classes, some classmates and I formed a 4-6 person message circle to continue practicing. I was always shocked they invited me since I knew I wasn’t gifted, but I had fun listening to their psychic messages, and I especially enjoyed watching them channel. When the most senior woman in our group channeled, she all of sudden got an accent and was a sassy spirit. I did realize later that some words of wisdom I got from the woman was the same stuff that would come out of the sassy spirits. Was my classmate channeling? Or was she finally letting out her inner sassy-ness in the form of “channeling” - where she could now say things she might not have normally said to some of us, since “it wasn’t really her”.
A few months ago I was really getting into watching another channeler on GetWisdom.com. I really enjoy him, but after listening to countless Channelings I always wondered why all these famous dead people basically had the same message. Something always had to do with how so many dark entities are infiltrating channelers, and most of the these famous people admit to being wrong, and spreading false information while they were alive. I mean this can be true, but all the dead folks are apparently saying it- that most channelers are being misguided, except for of course, the guy at GetWisdom.
And have you all heard about CARLOS?? It’s a stunt that proves a lot of people will just fall for anyone who acts like a channeler and has great marketing. I just came upon this recently. I mean.. how easily are we fooled? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qN54PDwNa6s
Have you read this article that is questioning Abraham Hicks?
My Questions to Channelers:
I am hanging onto a small thread of belief that some people can tap into something, some knowledge in the ethers and bring information through, but the people channeling “galactic guides” that are saying Trump is the Savior is really putting more weight in my disillusionment with channeling.
My conclusions are that one of the below is happening: