I didn’t realize things were trends when I was becoming interested in them.
As I continuously looked outside of myself for answers about myself, this journey led me to a woman who offered sessions telling clients about their soul portraits (their home planet, gifts, purpose, challenges in this life). I starved for information about WHO AM I? WHERE AM I FROM? WHY AM I HERE? In typical Jessica fashion, I read a sentence or 2 on her website, then quickly booked a session (and it was pricey). I needed answers NOW.
I realized this was a desire from all the rhetoric around being “authentic”. In the land of spiritual new-age, who you truly are is your soul- who your soul is before its been born into this life.
I contacted the woman and she spoke lovingly about my soul’s heritage. She told me the essence of where the my soul was from (naming a few “planets” I have never heard of before, not even in the new age jargon) and she frightened me a bit, saying on my way down to incarnating, my soul was in a way hijacked by trickster spirits. She said she would clear all that out in this session, but it definitely upset me. Other than that I was pleased with the session and I was now on her mailing list.
I took everything she said as truths, because why would she lie? And she must be more powerful than I am to access all this information about everyone.
Very soon after my session I received a mailing list email saying that she was ready to teach others how to read soul portraits and would be offering an online master class that would last 6 months. I was intrigued, could anyone do this? I want to know the secrets, I want to have access to that knowledge too!
I emailed her expressing tentative interest, letting her know I was not a medium nor a powerful psychic, so I wasn’t sure I would be able to do it. She put my worries aside and let me know she wasn’t any of those things either. A few weeks later, after more quick pep talks from her to take the course, I signed up. Maybe I could help others on their journey too, like she helped me. Well.. I think she helped me.
The reading and listening material she gave our virtual class was overwhelming at first. We were to listen to recordings of old courses she had given, in lieu of her giving us the course, and read over course material that was not updated at all. Parts of the recordings and reading material did not match in terms of steps in the process. I messaged her a few times calling out the discrepancies, and she let me know she was working on clearer reading materials. Why didn’t she do that before the course started? What did I just pay for?
After all that listening and reading in the first few weeks, it was time to practice.
Everyone got the answers wrong.
We were taught to use pendulums to indicate what planet our subject was from and for the most part everyone in the class consistently got the answer “wrong”. I was so frustrated, I told her I wasn’t a medium. I told her I wasn’t good enough to take the course before signing up! But why was everyone else getting everything wrong too? Was the teacher even “right”? Was anyone ever right?
After weeks of frustration, we were told that “you should tell your client what you got from the initial pendulum read.” That it’s “what they need to hear right now, even if it’s “wrong””. We were also told that since there is so much information about each home planet, and it would take forever to explain everything to someone, we should tell our clients to buy her book if they want to know more. That actually really bothered me. I have 2 red flags swirling about right now.
First of all, I am not going to tell someone something unless I KNOW it’s correct, they could be changing their life around 1 small sentence I say. Secondly, I am not selling your book for you! Wow. Just Wow.
Even through this, I felt this woman thought she was sincere, and was overall, a good person. A little disorganized, yes.. but she must feel like she is actually helping people.. she might think she is always getting the correct answers from the divine. I felt her heart must be in the right place.
Another red flag in reading her book, and attending the course, I noticed that he sessions weren’t really individualized. We learned characteristics of each personality a person would have if they were from certain planets, and then when you meet with your client you basically just read off that personality. I suppose this is what astrologers do. I was becoming disenchanted. I thought my reading was personal to me, but it seems like everyone from my planet had a little “oopsie” and got hijacked by a trickster spirit.
I tried to test out giving soul readings to friends and family, but it didn’t feel right.
I kept wondering how the teacher knows all this information? Who taught her? Was this channeled through her or someone else? Who is the original source of this information? It was lightly cited in her book, but hard to find a lot of information on it. Why wasn’t anyone else talking about some of these “planets” if they were real? I just had too many questions, and in the end, knew I wouldn’t be going forward working with clients on soul portraits.
After all of these red flags I stayed with the course as we went over house clearings, and property clearings, which I was more on board with. But I still felt like I had lost a lot of time and money with all this.
I see now that this whole “are you a starseed”thing is just another new age trend.
I realized it doesn’t matter what “planet” you’re from. I did almost nothing with the message I got from my reading. If anything it might have given myself or others a sense of ego in a way for a moment in time.. “Ohhh I am from planet xyz, I am special, I am full of love, but you are just an earthling” Just in the same way people proclaiming to be a lightworker have a sense of “I am special, I am here on a mission to save the planet with light and love” - ok well we are all special and all here for a reason.
This also showed me a peek behind the curtain. The teacher is just a human, just like me. She doesn’t have special powers, we are equals in many ways. She wasn’t channeling a message that I couldn’t. She was working with the Divine through a tool (pendulum) just like I can.
However, like I have said in my post about stage mediums and ayahuasca centers, it can be dangerous if someone is claiming to have the answers for you, claiming to give you something that can change your life, claiming to give you your miracle. Claiming to heal you or tell you your aliments like a medical medium. I was actually scared for weeks that my soul was hijacked by a trickster for my whole life until that point that she “cleared” it. People are putting their trust in you if you are working with them in this way. I urge practitioners to take another look within. Can you possibly harm and confuse someone with your work? Do you REALLY know the Truth? And if you do, should you charge for it?
Really… where are people getting all of this information? Have they “channeled” a spirit that told them what Pleiadians are like and then everyone else is just regurgitating this information? Who were they channeling? Spirits can lie too. And how does it actually help you to know that you’re a Pleiadian (or insert planet name here)?
People can unknowingly be channeling dark spirits that give messages of love to keep people stagnant or confused. People can truly think that they are helping the world, but just be adding to the confusion. I was so blinded by trying to find answers from people I thought were more wise or had more gifts than I did. I feel like I have been running on a treadmill most of my life chasing the false answers, when I should have been paying attention to my intuition.